It's been a weird week for me. All I have thought about is my treatment tomorrow and how I don't want to go. It literally makes me gag to think about it. I know I need to get over it and just get my butt prepared for tomorrow. Of coarse I will be going, but I sure wish my attitude could change right now.
Dan says I have been really moody, really emotional and kind of just a mess all week. I guess he is right. He would definitely know :)
I find myself thinking a lot this week about this stupid cancer and what if this treatment doesn't work. What if my tumor isn't shrinking. It's so weird how you don't even know if this is all doing anything. I have my MRI tomorrow, so hopefully I will find out something tomorrow. Bottom line I am really struggling this week. I am really tired of all this and i have so much more to still do.
On a brighter note, Karley Faye plays Montana State tonight and I can't wait to watch her game. The Vikings need a win. They are 3-2 in conference play. Not so good. It is time to start winning please. My niece Chantel Jaeger goes to Montana State so Karley will get to see her cousin tonight. Very cool. Chantel is a runner at MSU. She is amazing. She set a new record the very first event she did this last fall. Go Chantel!!!
Here's to very good news tomorrow!!! You are on my mind and in my heart!!! Feel so positive about your treatment!!! Appreciate you and your willingness to share about this challenge and what you are going through. Admire you tons. Getting my t-shirt soon and got some to share with the others we know!! FIGHT LIKE A GIRL!!!!!!!!! Love you!!
ReplyDeleteJodi B.
Jodi, you haven't got your shirts yet? Dang, i am going to ask Peri about that. thank you so much for all of your support. I love you!!
DeleteKim, have been following your journey and want you to know how special and brave you are. I know you can beat this. I know it is very wearing and at times depression rears its ugly head, but you go girl and kick this in the A__. My prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteMaryJo
MaryJo, so wonderful to hear from you. thank you for following my journey. it has been very tough at times, but I can do this. I am amazed at the support I have. I am truly blessed.
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