This surgery has really been more than I was prepared for. I don't know what I was ready for, but not this. I have never had major surgery before and all I can say is it is not fun at all. I think the hardest part is the time it is taking to get better. It"s just really hard to not be able to do things because you are injured. I have sure taken a lot for granted in this life of mine. It is amazing the things you cannot do when one of your arms, right arm at that, is not working to full capacity. It really sucks! Okay enough complaining.
I went to see my radiation oncologist on Monday. She feels I look fantastic and am doing so well. Sure don't feel that way. I will go back to see her on the 24th of May to have very small tattoos placed on my chest and underarm. They use these tattoos to know where to aim the radiation beam. Then it takes a week or so the get everything prepared and ready to go for me to start radiation. My first radiation appointment will be June 5th. Very special day. MY BIRTHDAY! Don't they know how important my birthday is to me? Oh well, it will be nice to just get it started. Have to start it to finish it. I will have 33 sections so radiation will go until the middle of July. I am kind of bummed because I wanted to be done by the end of June. Oh well.
I saw my surgeon on Tuesday for a check up and to get my port removed. So nice to not have that ugly bump on my chest anymore. Wont miss that thing one bit. I am healing well from surgery and the site looks good to a surgeon. Looks icky to me. I am having a problem with my arm. I keep having this burning sensation and it is really uncomfortable. She says it is my nerves kinda freaking out because they have been cut and messed with. This is were they removed the nodes from. She wants me to see another doctor for this. I am so tired of doctors and doctor appointments. So I still have to make an appointment to see him. He is a specialist on rehabbing me back to full capacity with my arm. Ugh....
I seem to have good days and not so good days emotionally and physically. Emotionally I think I am good and can handle all of this. Knowing that I will be rebuilt is what keeps me okay. Physically I just need to let my body heal and start feeling better and I will be fine. I still have a lot of pain some days and not so much others. I think most of this is from the nerves in my arm. I just don't want to hurt anymore. It's gotten really old.
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