I have been struggling a bit with the why me's. I find myself thinking about things like am I not going to be around for a long time? Am I going to die from this? What if this comes back? Lately my big fear/thought has been what if I go through all of this and it comes back. I try hard to not let these thoughts stay around very long, but they sure do creep in.
Yesterday Dan and I went to Seattle for my pelvic ultra sound and everything went well. My ovaries show no cyst at all. The procedure went well, but I was really sore last night.
Today we went back to Seattle and met with my breast surgeon. I really liked her a lot. She gave us so much information. I will probably have a single mastectomy. I say probably because I still have some testing that needs to be done. I need to be sure that I do not have the BRACA gene. It might be BRAC gene?? If I do not have it then I will have a single mastectomy. If I do have it it may be best to do a double mastectomy because this would increase my chances of breast cancer coming back in the other breast. It would also mean that my girls would have a high chance of getting breast cancer. My doctor doesn't think I have the gene, but we need to test to be sure. I still need to see my reconstruction doctor also. I was a little bummed to learn today that I wont have reconstruction until probably early next year :( I wanted to be done with everything this year. Not going to happen.
So, I have scheduled an appointment with my reconstruction doctor in March. I still need to schedule with the geneticist to get checked for the gene. I plan on having surgery in late April.
My oh so GREAT friends that are so good to me......thank you
My oh so brave, positive (at times), beautiful friend, I wish I could hug you right now cause I love you so much!! You are an inspiration to all cancer patients!! I will hold your hand through anything you face and I know you know that:)) keep your chin up and your arms stretched wide cause mine are wrapped around you my friend:))
ReplyDeleteI love you Jody. thank you sweetie!!
DeleteHi Sis! Thinking about you so much lately. I know I've said this before but I Love being able to visit your blog and see how things are going. So glad to hear the new chemo is managable for you. We will pray that you don't have the Brac gene. I wish I lived closer and could give you a big HUG right now. I often tell people how strong my sister is and that I don't think I could be as strong and courageous as you. I know you have the best doctors and am confident they will do everything needed to free you from your cancer. We are flying out of Seattle to Phoenix to watch the Big Sky Indoor Championships. Chantel has qualified for two events so far. Hope we can see you then (Flying out Feb. 24th, returning Feb. 26th) Stay strong, luv you!
ReplyDeleteHi Sis, I definitely hope we can see you guys when you come to through seattle. let us know your schedule.
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