Feeling pretty darn good :)

First off, my husband hasn't had to call me "grumpy" all week :) thats a really good thing.  I am feeling so much better.  I am off the AC and now on the taxol. The taxol seems to be SO much better than the AC. I am a little scared because it is still early.  My fatigue is so much better.  The taxol can be accumulative so I don't want to get to excited, but so far so good. I am a happy camper right now.


I plan on going to work tomorrow.  Yippee....I haven't worked two weeks in a row for way to long. 

Good News.....

Dr. Kaplan just called me to let me know that the tumor is shrinking. YES!!!!! The chemo seems to be doing what it is suppose to do.
When I go in on Friday we will talk about some more test that he would like to do.


So far, I am feeling pretty good.  I am feeling like the "taxol" is going to be easier on me.  Today I was really tired. Not as fatigued, but just tired. I have had some achy joints and a weird stomach.  I am not going to work tomorrow, but I hope to work Wednesday and Thursday.  I feel a little scared, or afraid of the unknown still. Just not sure how this "taxol" is going to affect me.

So far doing good....

Day two after my first Taxol treatment and I am doing well. I am feeling amazingly good, but I do still have a bunch of steroids in me which keeps me feeling pretty good for a few days. My hope is that Monday is going to come and I am not going to experience the horrible fatigue.  


Very anxious for my MR results on Monday also. You all will be the second to know after me :)

Long day...

It's 7:00 o'clock and Dan and I just got home. Been a long day and i am really tired.  We got to Swedish this morning about 9:00 am.  My treatment went well.  No reactions again...yay!!  I asked my doctor a lot of questions today about my treatment, surgery and radiation.  I have been feeling like what if my treatment isn't working, what if this comes back, what if what if.  I have just been feeling really scared.  My doctor said all of those feelings are very normal and he reassured me everything is going well.  I had my MR today which will show us that things are working for sure :) I will get these results on Monday. Very anxious for that.  My doctors office scheduled me an appointment with my breast surgeon today. I will see her on February 7th. I am very ready to find out more about my mastectomy. The procedure, post op recovery and just learn more about the whole deal.  My doctors office also set me up with an appointment with my radiation oncologist for February 13th. Will be nice to find out more about my radiation therapy also.  I did learn that my surgery will be about two weeks after my taxol treatments end. I will need to heal for about a month or more before I will be able to start my radiation.  The next doctor that I need to see is the reconstruction surgeon.  I will schedule to see them after I see the breast surgeon.  Wow... a lot of doctor huh.  Especially for someone who has never been sick before. 


Shout out to Nancy Pugh and Katy Mowrer for spending time with me this morning at treatment. Thanks guys.  Love you both!


I am doing a little better this evening.  Still pretty emotional, but a lot of that is from all the steroids they have been giving me and pumping into me.  I am prepared to have an emotional, moody, up and down weekend.  Basically I am an emotional roller coaster.  Poor Danno.  


I also got some other news today, another diagnosis....

Thank goodness

there's a name for 

this disorder.

Somehow I feel 

better even though

I have it!!

I was diagnosed with

A.A.A.D.D.

Age Activated

Attention Deficit

Disorder/Chemo Brain

This is how it

manifests:

I decide to water

my garden.

As I turn on the

hose in the

driveway.

I look over at my car

and decide it needs

washing.

As I started toward

the garage.

I notice mail on the

porch table that

I brought up from

the mail box earlier.

I decide to go

through the mail

before I wash the

car.

I lay my car keys on 

the table,

put the junk mail in 

the garbage can

under the table,

and notice the table,

and notice that the

can is full.

So I decide to put

the bills back on

the table & take 

out the garbage

first.

But then I think,

since I'm going to be

near the mailbox

when I take out the 

garbage anyway,

I may as well pay 

the bills first.

I take my check

book off the table,

and see that there is

only one check left.

My extra checks are

in my desk in the study,

so I go inside the 

house to my desk

where

I find the can of Pepsi I'd been 

drinking.

I'm going to look

for my checks,

but first I need to 

push the Pepsi

aside

so that I don't

accidentally knock it

over.

The Pepsi is getting

warm.

I decide to put it in 

the refrigerator to

keep it cold.

As I head toward the

kitchen with the

Pepsi,

a vase of flowers on

the counter catches

my eye.

They need water.

I put the Pepsi on 

the counter and 

discover my reading

glasses that

I've been searching

for all morning.

I decide I better put

them back on my 

desk,

but first I'm going to

water the flowers.

I set the glasses

back down on the 

counter,

fill a container with

water and suddenly

spot the TV remote

someone had left it

on the kitchen table.

I realize that 

tonight when we

go to watch TV,

I'll be looking for the 

remote.

but I won't

remember that it's

on the kitchen table,

so I decide to put it 

back in the den

where it belongs.

But first I'll water the

flowers

I pour some water in the

the flowers

Quite a bit of it spills

on the floor.

So, I set the remote 

back on the table,

get some towels and

wipe up the spill.

Then I head down

the hall trying to 

remember what I 

was planning to do.

At the end of the

day:

the car isn't washed

the bills aren't paid

there is a warm can

of

Pepsi sitting on the 

counter

the flowers don't

have enough water,

there is still only 1

check in my check

book,

I can't find the

remote,

I can't find my 

glasses,

and I don't remember what I did

with the car keys

Then, when I try to

figure out why

nothing got done,

I'm really baffled

because I know I 

was busy all day

long,

and I'm really tired.

I realize this is a

serious problem,

and I'll try to get

some help for it, but 

first I'll check my 

e-mail......

Don't laugh --

this could be you 

someday!!!

Weird week for me.....

It's been a weird week for me. All I have thought about is my treatment tomorrow and how I don't want to go. It literally makes me gag to think about it.  I know I need to get over it and just get my butt prepared for tomorrow. Of coarse I will be going, but I sure wish my attitude could change right now.

Dan says I have been really moody, really emotional and kind of just a mess all week. I guess he is right. He would definitely know :)

I find myself thinking a lot this week about this stupid cancer and what if this treatment doesn't work. What if my tumor isn't shrinking. It's so weird how you don't even know if this is all doing anything. I have my MRI tomorrow, so hopefully I will find out something tomorrow. Bottom line I am really struggling this week.  I am really tired of all this and i have so much more to still do.

On a brighter note, Karley Faye plays Montana State tonight and I can't wait to watch her game. The Vikings need a win. They are 3-2 in conference play. Not so good. It is time to start winning please. My niece Chantel Jaeger goes to Montana State so Karley will get to see her cousin tonight. Very cool. Chantel is a runner at MSU. She is amazing. She set a new record the very first event she did this last fall. Go Chantel!!!

Hanging in there...

It's Monday and I am doing pretty good. I still have low energy, but everyday this week should be better. I plan on going to work the rest of this week :)

I am not looking forward to this Friday when I start my new treatments of "taxol".  Twelve weeks seems like forever.  I know it will go by fast,  but just not fast enough :)

I need to "shout out" to my friend Lorrie Larsen.  She brought Dan and I dinner last Friday night. Was so sweet of you to venture out here to the country and bring us dinner. Thank you Lorrie!  It was great to come home from treatment last Friday and dinner was done for us. Loved it!

I am a little anxious to start a new set of chemo drugs. The doctor said these are different than what I have been on and I will have different symptoms. These drugs are suppose to be easier on the body, but can be symptomatic so lets just all hope and pray for minimal symptoms.

I am going to make it a great week!!  :)

It's going to be a good weekend :)

It's Saturday, should be my turnaround day. Ready for that :) I got up this morning and did my Jillian Michael's DVD workout. It was so hard. I am so out of shape, but hey, I did it. I am going to try and do that a few times a week now. It's only 9:00 am, but so far I am feeling pretty good today :)

I though I would share a few pictures and a video I made of our winter wonderland week out her in the country up here on our hill.  Dang, I can't get my video to load.

We went to our neighbors this night for a redneck power out dinner. We all have generators so we were very warm and it was pretty cool. Thanks John and Tonya. Also "big shout out" to Tyler their son, he has done so much for us.

My man keeping the generator going....brrrr